Why do I do this?

I mean, really. why do I do this to myself? Why can't I just LET GO? Its been how long? And I know that its stupid, but hanging out with you, just hanging out and talking, and laughing, made me so happy. I don't know what it is about you, I really don't. But it's been how many years? And we've found each other and kept in contact for how long? Yeah, its kinda hard to forget you...